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Christina
07 March 2012 @ 11:14 pm

Bored at work, time to update about my wonderful weekend.

Road trips are perfect. Me, Tacarra, Wendy. Great music, laughter, catching up, passing two really slow trucks on a one lane road while listening to epic Doctor Who music and screaming.

Saturday felt so cultured. Expensive small town shops, half hour opera recital for a friend I've known since I was 11, fancy Italian dinner with a group of 10, international Jazz concert. Then we ruined the vibe by going to McDonalds for shamrock shakes. Worth it. Closed the night by watching Lady Gaga's Monster Ball special on tv at the hotel. It was fate.

Wonderful brunch on Sunday, including running back to the hotel for food we left in the hotel. I love staying in a hotel so small they remember me from when I stayed 18 months ago and give me the master key when I leave something in the room. "Just bring it back, okay."

More road trip (added Debbie this time, who we don't see nearly enough) with deep political and spiritual discussion, Mumford and Sons, group pictures while driving, more insane laughter and passing of slow cars. Stopped by border patrol, spoken to by an Asian cop with a legit Asian accent. "Are all of you American citizens?" drive away "...are you?!" We laughed so hard, I cried.

It was beautiful to spend time with some of my closest and oldest friends (and Amanda's boyfriend, who is pretty cool).

Here's to more road trip adventures this weekend. Pandacon, here I come!

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Christina
Work has been psycho crazypants the last two days. People out sick, everything going wrong with things I'm supposed to be working on (not my fault, but I, by default, must fix them, explain the problem to those who can, etc). Stayed out too late last night hanging out with Wendy and Tacarra at Applebee's (it was worth it - I had a mojito and hot lava cake and tears of laughter). BUT I WAS SO EXHAUSTED TODAY. Ran errands after work, bought new jeans and sexy new shoes (for wedding con?! I hope).

Maines is good, though. Lots of paperwork lately, lots of laughter with Maggie and Tash and Jeremy and some crazy crazy boys.

Tonight's most likely my last free night until mid-March. Road trip adventures with my best friends to see another old friend this weekend and then Rhode Island and DC next weekend! Work and more week in between.

Going through TVD withdrawal already. Still have 2.5 weeks until a new episode. Haven't watched any since the last time I hung out with Wendy. Watching one right now, while I write emails and fill out cards and fold laundry and wait to watch the Duke game with my sister and father. Life is good.
 
 
Current Music: Weapons The Daylights
 
 
Christina
Damm TVD music sneaking up on me and kicking me with hardcore PPD.

Time of Our Lives by Tyrone Wells

This is where the chapter ends
And new one now begins
Time has come for letting go
The hardest part is when you know

All of these years
When we were here
Are ending
But I'll always remember

We have had the time of our lives
And now the page is turned
The stories we will write
We have had the time of our lives
And I will not forget the faces left behind
It's hard to walk away from the best of days
But if it has to end, I'm glad you have been my friend
In the time of our lives

Where the water meets the land
There is shifting in the sand
Like the tight that ebbs and flows
Memories will come and go

(chorus)

We say goodbye, we hold on tight
To these memories that never die
We say goodbye, we hold on tight
To these memories that never die

We have had the time of our lives
And now the page is turned
The stories we will write
We have had the time of our lives
And I will not forget the faces left behind
It's hard to walk away from the best of days
But if it has to end, I'm glad you have been my friend
In the time of our lives
 
 
Current Music: Time of Our Lives Tyrone Wells
 
 
Christina
So, let's set up this boring story that I need to tell. It'll tell you about my weekend in the process.

On Friday, Wendy came over for more TVD marathon fun. We watched for hours and hours, made dinner in the middle, made excellent tea at the end, etc. We got up and made blueberry pancakes for my family and laughed at the table with them.

Wendy is a nursing major, so she had some work to do while I got ready for the day. She's looking through stuff and talking to herself and says, "this would be so much easier on notecards." So I pull out the insane number of 3x5 cards I still have from high school.

On one of these notecards from, literally, 6-7 years ago, I found quotes I had written from the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants books. Just three small notecards, with quotes that meant something to me at the time. I read them and realized…it's insane how little has changed.

Here they are:

It wasn't the suffering she willfully clung to. It was the precious stuff. But the precious stuff attached her, irrevocably, to the pain.

What a pitiful waste she was. She was willing to give away, to throw away, the very best she had. For what? It was one thing to sacrifice yourself for a great cause. It was another to destroy yourself for a person who didn't even want you. It was an act of self-immolation, a sacrifice nobody wanted, that did nobody any good. What could be more tragic than that?

She thought she was independent and strong, but she got one small taste of love and she was hungrier than anyone. She was ravenous.


They're all from Lena's story, but I'm not sure which book in the series. It was really intriguing and unsettling to have the feelings of teenage me still resonate with adult me.
 
 
Current Music: Wait It Out Imogen Heap
 
 
Christina
Obligatory new year post.

I attempted to do my usual list post, all the things I experienced in 2011 and all I hope to do in 2012, but…

2011 was so complicated.

It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, as they say.

I mean, I went to LONDON and EDINBURGH. And LEAKYCON with all of you, my incredible friends. I graduated from college (which has its pros and cons, but it happened). One of my best friends got MARRIED and I had an incredible time planning it with her and the bridesmaids and enjoying our plans on that day. I've traveled so much in the past few months and I'm so so blessed to be able to see the places I see and do the things I do.

But everyday life was a huge bust last year. I was sad and confused and lonely and overworked and tired and scared. Truthfully, all the reasons to be all those things are still there. But I'm not going to do it anymore.

This year, I'm changing things. I don't care how many things in my life are completely unknowable. I don't care that I have to work twice as hard to find time for my friends. I don't care that I am prone to seasonal depression. I. Will. Be. Better.

I started a new tumblr to help me along the way ('tis here). My tumblr is mostly fandom related, random things, etc. But this one will be all about positivity and inspiration for change. This year is going to be different.
 
 
Current Music: Currency of Love Silversun Pickups
 
 
 
Christina
Real life has been pretty good at distracting me from #ppd lately. But I'm pretty sure it'll always be there, ready to pop up and hit me with a wave of nostalgia and literal heart squeezes (does anyone else get those? not just re: ppd, but in general? physical heart aches?)

But then I had to go and listen to this Ministry song. IT HURTS MY SOUL. I hate them for this, but...I love them. And this song.

More Than Enough

As we move on
It doesn't mean what we had is gone
When we graduate we must make way for the next generation

And I can't wait, to take my kids to the station
And watch them wave, knowing their great destination

Though I can't go back
I love knowing that

The weapon we have, is still love
The weapon we have, is still love
It's more than enough
The weapon we have, is still love
It's more than enough
And having a few close friends, is still more than enough

Our memories made
Defy time and space
Validating them

We'll remember this day
Though now our hearts break
As the perfect ending

The weapon we have, is still love
The weapon we have, is still love
It's more than enough
The weapon we have, is still love
It's more than enough
And having a few close friends, is still more than enough

If we succeed
You will exceed our foundations
And in time
You'll think of life longingly
And you will sing, "I love knowing"

The weapon we have, is still love
The weapon we have, is still love
It's more than enough
The weapon we have, is still love
It's more than enough
And having a few close friends, is still more than enough
 
 
Current Music: This Side of Heaven Matthew Ryan
 
 
Christina
This year's Thanksgiving post is being thrown together three-fourths of the way through the day, completely haphazardly. I apologize, Thanksgiving, for not giving thoughtful thanks. My life is busy.

I think, though, I have to note the bigger things I'm thankful for, not just the little moments I generally list. So here goes.

-thoughtful friends who give the greatest hugs when I see them, no matter how rarely that is
-my family, a constant in the midst of life change
-the time to read books - though I feel so pressed for time, I've still read 50 books this year and it fills me with joy
-a manager who acts 13
-a supervisor who gives the greatest healing hugs and the kindest words
-two jobs that provide me with funds for adventures and my future
-my Strength throughout it all, even if He's chosen to make it a struggle
 
 
Current Music: Hold On To What You Believe Mumford and Sons
 
 
Christina
#midwestcon (a.k.a. #coffeecon) was even better than I could have expected. As always, it's amazing to spend days with my gmhgirls, talking and playing on tumblr and laughing until we cry. I could go on and on, but I think all our tweets said it all.

Now, it's back to the grind. Two 14.5hr work days, followed by a busy holiday weekend. I made the mistake of stepping on the scale when I got home and now I'm freaking out about my eating habits and making time for exercise between now and Amy's wedding in 2.5 WEEKS!

Not sure what's going on with LeakyCon right now. I thought I was for sure going, but it doesn't seem like many of us are planning on going. So I'd rather use my vacation days (assuming I have them - still no word on the job yet) on an extended trip after WeddingCon maybe? Can I get official thoughts from everyone? LeakyCon 2013 instead?
 
 
Current Music: Letterbomb American Idiot Broadway Cast
 
 
Christina
13 November 2011 @ 07:08 pm
So last night ended with a bit of angst, but in all, it was such an incredible day.

I spent all afternoon with Amy and Tacarra and bridesmaid Mary painting globes and candles for Amy's wedding. We drank coffee with snowmen marshmallows and talked about our lives past and present. Mary and I bonded over our similar yet completely different post-college lives and feelings. We teased Amy's fiance as he played video games while we threw glitter onto candles.

Amy and I went wedding shopping after we finished all the DIY stuff. Doing the smallest, most normal things - getting her different sizes of strapless bras, talking about what married life might be like - in combination with the most exciting wedding things - finding insane silver sparkly converse for her wedding shoes, her randomly hugging me when finding perfect earrings - made me so aware of how awesome my life is.

I'm scared and confused about what I'm doing with my life. But if I can have friendships like that and days like that…if I can have friendships that make me drive 9 hours, two states over for a weekend with them…I'll be okay, no matter what I'm doing for work.
 
 
Current Music: London Rain Heather Nova
 
 
Christina
27 October 2011 @ 06:02 pm
I don't care what the haters say, I will always love Coldplay. And I have to post this song, even if this is all everyone is talking about today.

U.F.O.

Lord, I don't know which way I am going
Which way the river gonna flow
It's just seems that upstream, I keep rowing
Still got such a long way to go
Still got such a long way to go

Then that light, it's your eye
I know, I swear,
We'll find somewhere the streets are paved with gold
But it's fly, split the skies
But that's all right, sometimes, somewhere I'm streaming through the holes
 
 
Current Music: U.F.O. Coldplay